Slow steps to health

Slow steps to health

Sometimes I have to take things very slowly.  I have pernicious anaemia which means sometimes I am very fatigued. I just drag myself from place to place and have too many (sometimes surprise) naps.  I have to learn to listen to my body and let it rest- if rest is what it needs.

I feel guilty for not doing things; for not taking photos, for not exploring or writing or blogging or any of the hobbies and things I like to do when I have the energy for them.  I get called lazy quite often, from family and friends who don’t really understand and I feel guilty for it anyway.  I’m always looking over my shoulder waiting to be called on it.  If I had energy I would be doing things.  If my body was working at full (or near full ) capacity I would be doing things non- stop.  I would feel like I had created something or expressed myself and I would fall asleep tired not fatigued. 

However I have learned to be patient.   I know my energy levels will come back up.  I know I can get back to doing the things I love.  Until then, I am resting.  I am changing my diet, my habits and whole way of living to improve my health and life.  I have not smoked a cigarette since february and I will never smoke another.  I have not had coca-cola for two months – I used to drink at least five bottles a day!! I walk more and eat more fruit then I ever had.  Slowly and surely, step by step, I will snail crawl my way to health.

And if my body is telling me it needs rest I will rest – and I will not let anyone make me feel bad for it!

indoor succulent garden

Tiny indoor succulent garden

 

 

 

 

 

Tiny succulent in a bottle

Tiny succulent in a tiny bottle

Lindy Bop Dress

Lindy Bop Dress Audry dress

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